Physically I feel fine. Still a touch of the goofy numbness in my right foot but overall physically, everything is intact, no injuries etc. It is just that I am so damned tired right now. All the time. Worse than being tired is being unmotivated which is a sensation that I am not used to feeling.
Just tired.... tired, tired, tired. Lost... again it is that post 100 mile untethered feeling that I usually get.. nothing to hold onto and nothing on the horizon. Last September I manged to sqeeze in 300 miles somehow... this September I will be lucky if it is half that amount. This only brings up the question... do I take considerable more time off or do I try to work my way through this now and hope to ultimately build up my momentum again? If it is truly a choice between two evils, I think that I would rather just start moving again and feel like shit as opposed to doing nothing and feeling like shit anyway. At least if I am running I will have some satisfaction that I am doing something.
My plans for next year are sort of morphing and to be honest, they are going in directions that I would have never guessed and I really can't explain. Of course nothing is decided one way or the other until the Hardrock 100 lottery in December which is three months away.
So... I'll do a short run today, track workout tomorrow... then short runs through the rest of the week. Pacing at Run Rabbit Run this weekend for 28 miles and that will be fun. I am leaving COS at 16:00 on Friday afternoon if anyone would like to ride up to Steamboat with me.
JT sent me this pic last week that we took of Annie and I at the LT100 finish as I was waiting to get into the car. I'm sure that her being gone and adjusting to all of that is weighing on me as well. I still can't believe I have a kid in College...
|Annie and I in Leadville.. I have no clue where the blanket came from but it sure is special.|